Losing an animal is never ever easy.
Making the hard decision to let them go is a blessing but also a curse. Could I have done more? Was it my fault? Going through the stages of grief, all different emotions pop up every single day and sometimes unexpectedly. I am never sure how I will feel in the next minute or in one hour. Seeing a picture of my horse or just seeing a picture of someone else’s horse. At the moment, most of the time, it brings sadness and loss. It has been 2 months since his passing. Being together for 9 years, a partnership, friendship, security blanket, study buddy, bond…..I can go on and on. He was my everything. Losing a horse is different than losing another animal. Maybe it is their size. Maybe because you have to trust them with your life when you get on their back. Maybe it is because they give you wings. Or maybe the love they give to you is just beyond everything you will ever experience in your life.
I moved to his home 3 years ago.
It was a hard 3 years. It was a special 3 years where I was taught valuable life lessons. After his passing I had to make a life changing decision. Will I stay or will I leave and start a new life? The decision was made for me in the end. After his passing, within a week, our special place where we spent so much time together was taken over by another horse. Yes, I understand that it is a business decision from the owner and life needs to go on. But it was just too quick. Too unexpected. Suddenly without warning, another horse is wiping away his hoofprints that were still visible in the sand. His butt prints he left after having his last sand roll. Gone.
So, my journey has ended here.
After nine short years. To go and make new memories and never forget my Heart Horse. My Broken Arrow. Till we meet again.
Moving on and expanding my business
To all my students, most of you are now friends, and new clients. I will be helping with problem behaviour in the Helderberg area by doing home visits only. My puppy/ dog training school has moved to Hermanus and my services are now extended to the Overberg community. Helderberg basin was my home for more than 20 years. You are an amazing community and I hope that I will be able to help a lot of pet parents with their animal issues in the future. Thank you for your support and trusting me in helping you and your fur kids.